Stuff You Can't Understand and I Won't Soon

The Great Gatsby: I'm probably not doing the stupid "treasure hunt" and I probably won't read the book....
Screw that.

Other stuff is bothering me, but I'm not telling. I swear I want to scream. Is it seriously that hard. And oh, "WWDLTYWHTWAMNCCIABT." Screw that too. HAISTTHTTCOMIHCCM?

IARM... KB"VT"AIGGFU.... IAAT....
IHYKHMTH.

Mind-Numbing Community Service

Listening to music to cheer myself up. I'm upset...yet again. Oh well, right? Anyways, I'm working on my community service stuff. I'm stressed, but not as much as I was.
I hope everything is going okay with everyone else.
ISHBC... (I don't think anyone knows what I mean by that, but that's fine with me. I just needed to get that out)

Waiting It Out

So, I finally drew the human skull. (It's probably not as good as the teacher would want, but I had to do it with a picture that I took in class and it was a tad blurry)
Now, all I need to do is some sketches and I'll be caught up and prepared.
I can get a lot done in a couple of days it seems. As long as I'm not disturbed and if I'm pretty happy. ...I'm not exactly happy right now, but I'm just gonna put my ear-buds in and wait it out.

Break Update

Okay, so the break is going well, so far.I'm so ready for Thanksgiving food (only get it 1-2 times a year). I gotta work on some of my stories and I need to read more on the library books I checked out. Right now, I'm going to just chill out.
Today was a good day (I spent it with my love), it was way too short though. I can't wait 'till the time changes again. I like when it stays pretty sunny for a while, even if I get sun burns really really easily.
It's driving me crazy that he's not with me right now though. His scent is still on me and I love it, but it makes me miss him even more.
Hmm, maybe I should call him now?...
No clue. I just know I still want to talk his ears off..
Good news is:
I don't think I have to worry about [required] community service anymore. I'll just ask my history teacher if there's another spot available on the Phil Campbell trip. My eight hours will be taken care of and I won't be as stressed.
I just wish it didn't take a Saturday away from me..
I guess I'll think about all that later...
Oh, I just remembered I need to draw that human skull and I need to attempt another portrait. Tomorrow. I'll do it tomorrow...
I hope everyone is doing okay.
Bye.

Calming Down

I got the Kiwanis piece done and the Veterans Day card done. Still more to do...

Things To Do

Well, I finished the research paper.
Now, I need letter stencils do make a Veterans Day card for extra credit in history.
I gotta do a ton of stuff for creative writing.
I also have to do tons of other misc. things.

Check On It

High school is still difficult. I'm learning how to get through it though.
To-Do List:
Draw Cow Skull
Draw Foot
Draw Hand
Draw Shell
Photostory On Frontier Life
Powerpoint On Frontier Life Furniture
Research Paper
Draw Human Skull
Draw Face/Portrait
Travel Website
Ch. 6 History Packet
The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn
Ch. 7 of my book I'm writing or another non-related independent project in place of that
Letters About Literature Piece
Decide On Haiku
Probably more that I'm forgetting..
Dang...I have a lot to do. I'm gonna get to work on that I guess.
I hope everyone is adjusting well to what their daily obstacles are.

Life Updated

I haven't posted in a long time...
So, I guess I should update everyone.
Alright, high-school is hard. People are full of themselves (that will never change), too much projects to deal with, it's really tiring, and I just want to have fun.
Creative writing is really fun though. Best class in the world, I'd say. I'm working on a book and I'm on Ch. 7 now. I'm kind of stuck, but at least I'm that much closer (to finishing) , right?
I have nearly been with that love of mine for 17 months (will be 11/12/11).
Hmm, I am so happy that Beavis and Butt-Head back, I've missed them and now I have at least 30 minutes of hilarity to look forward to every week.
I'm managing I guess, but I just want it to be summer at least (I'd prefer to be out of school altogether, but I'll take what I can get).
I guess that's all for now.

I'm In Love Forever

It's my 14th montheversary today. I got roses and babies breath. I am so happy.I miss him so so much and he left a couple of hours ago.
It was the best day ever.

Good News

I am a semi-finalist in a poetry contest and the poem is going to be in a book.
It gives me hope as an aspiring author. It's all legit too. Which makes me very very happy.

Poochie

I pet the dog today. I haven't pet her until today. We're calling her Poochie. I'm kind of scared of dogs. She hasn't barked, growled, or tried to bite me so I decided to pet her. I'm glad she's okay.
Nothing else has happened so I'll keep you guys posted.

Caving Into Emotions

Caved today. So glad I did. I miss him so much and I want to talk to him right now, but he fell asleep on the phone. He was super busy today. I just hope I get to talk to him for a long time tomorrow. Today's time wasn't long enough.
That's it for now.

Points to Prove

At the moment, I'm in the middle of trying to prove a point. I keep wanting to pick of the phone anyway... I don't even know what point I'm trying to prove. I do, but I don't. The point won't really matter. It might not even be a "point" to someone else.  I'm hoping I won't cave, but I also hope I do at the same time.
Haven't even picked up Wuthering Heights today... There's still tonight... I'll force myself to read.
There's been a dog that's been staying in our yard and on our porch for the past couple of days. She's a pit-bull or something like that. Whoever's dog it is, they abused her and didn't care for her. We've been feeding her and I think she likes us. We can't keep her though because we have a cat [who keeps freaking out whenever she actually sees the dog]. We're too scared to give the dog a bath though [that it really needs], because we don't know how it would react. I'm just glad I know it's okay at the moment because it's with us.

Right Now

Well, yesterday had it's ups and downs. Although today did too. Right now I just want to talk to him, but the thing is: I'm thinking about just going to bed [I'm tired] and he probably won't call back. He's busy...
I'm just hoping tomorrow will be terrific. I'm going to try to get very far in Wuthering Heights in the next couple of days. I'm in Ch. 10, so I should really start reading more. The way I've been feeling, I haven't wanted to read.
I'm just going to chill out for a little while right now.

Caffeine and Candy

Well, today I've been kind of sad. Most of it was caused from lack of caffeine, apparently. I drank orange juice all day until around 7 P.M. and I ate a Hershey's candy bar and drank some Dr.Pepper and then I was back to myself.
He called today, so that made me happy. I hope he can come tomorrow. The Miz and Rey Mysterio are going to be the main event on RAW tomorrow (I think).
I really need him. Seeing him is going to make everything okay again. I'm sure of it.
I've been having self-view issues lately and just thinking and worrying too much. I know he'll make it better.

Hollow-Promises

Some promises begin to be hollow. I guess the true big picture is about the huge promises. A promise is a promise, but a bigger one obviously means more. If that one is broken I guess it would be devastating. However, when little promises are broken they can build up or you could just learn to not be let down when they turn out to be a hollow-promise...Which isn't good. You still feel let down, but not as bad as it is the first time... You become numb I guess...

Bad Days

It's been a bad day...
My cat, Blake, died...
Things have been going wrong...It started yesterday though.
Ugh. I guess that's all I want to say.

Recapping and Venting

Well, my birthday was good. Yesterday wasn't that great though, so I'm hoping today is better. Not much else is going on.
Well, that is a big lie.
My grandparents argue a lot more and I just don't like hearing it. I'm getting older so I'm not gonna be the same as I was when I was younger, you know? And it's like people keep acting like I'm going to stay the same. I'm not a little girl anymore...
I wish things would change.

They Fit!

Well, my birthday is tomorrow so I'm excited. I'm just chillin' out right now. I went shopping with my mom and got some clothes. Most of the clothes I tried on fit, so at least it wasn't as irritating. I got a new chair and floor lamp so I'm happy about that too. I'm hoping tomorrow will be a good day. I suppose that's all I have to say.

Catching Up

Um, things have been good with me. I was [pretty much] completely happy for around two days straight. So, that was a plus. Tomorrow, I get to see him,so that makes me very happy. Also, tomorrow is RAW night which is amazing. I just hope all is well tomorrow. I think it's going to be the final section of the turning point. I hope everyone else is doing okay. Best wishes to anyone and everyone.

Diamond Encrusted Pancakes

Okay, well I guess I have a good bit to say.
Well, Casey Anthony is not guilty apparently. I disagree, but that's all I'm saying.
Sarah Dessen's newest book, What Happened To Goodbye, is amazing.
Umm, the 4th of July was pretty fun, I guess. I got to spend it with him so I was happy about that. I played with those pop it things and a sparkler, while my mom went crazy over roman candles.
Right now, I'm listening to music and just thinking about things. I wish my books I ordered would hurry and come.
I guess that's it. For now.
The title is what it is because I saw a ring that looked like pancakes with diamonds in them, in my perspective anyways.

Carry Me

I'm okay.
The good news is:
My grandpa put a new lock on my door. That makes me happy.
Onto other things:
I really like being marriage-carried. <3
R-Truth and John Cena should have had a pillow fight.
Today's been a lazy day...It rained for most of the day. I slept for half the day.
There really isn't much else to say. So, bye for now.

Does It Matter?

Well, Fez (my cat) has had 6 babies. We think another is on the way.
I'm listening to Green Day. I love Green Day, but when I'm kind of upset I listen to them. It cheers me up a little. I'm just- I don't know...ugh.. I guess. I don't know.

YouTube - SYTYCD 6/15/11 Statue Routine

YouTube - SYTYCD 6/15/11 Statue Routine

I was watching this with my mom and I loved this.

Just Lettin' Ya Know

Well, my anniversary was nice and yesterday was fun too. Three hours of wrestling and I watched it with my love. I got Tiffany (a stuffed animal that's a snake) who is now dating Seth (the stuffed animal iguana) that I gave my love. That's all I'm writing for now.

Update

Well, tomorrow is my (1st) anniversary! <3 (: Yay!
Hmm, hopefully today I'm goin' to the store. I need to get out of the house. Haha. I also have to get two CDs to my cousin. So yeah. Anyways, how's everyone's summer going? Mine is pretty good. Bye for now.

Twins! Just Kidding

Some people have told me I resemble the singer in We the Kings (Travis Clark). I do agree, he could be my brother. That's about as close as I could get. I don't have contacts, I was just goofing off  in my mom's sunglasses. I figured this could cheer up the blog a little. 

I've also been told I look like Alyson Hannigan (American Pie,Date Movie). I look like her too. Especially our teeth, it's kind of weird. In the yearbook for celebrity look-a-likes I was compared with her and in that picture I was showing my teeth and it's like we have the same nose and same set of teeth.

I Miss The Kittens

Well, we just took the kittens to the pound. Hopefully, people will adopt them and take care of them. I'll miss Stitch (my favorite one). I'll also miss Garfield,Bartok,Lil' Andy,and Bobby Ray Jr... They were sweet. Lil' Andy and Bobby Ray Jr. were named after the parents. Bartok was named after the bat from Anastasia, he resembled him. Garfield resembled the well-known fat cat that eats lasagna so he was named after him. They'll be okay...
Our other cat is pregnant and will be having her kittens any time now. This'll be her 3rd litter. You'd figure I'd be used to getting rid of the kittens, but this time I guess I got a little too attached...

Here to Stay

Never mind that last post. I have the blog how I want it (for the most part). It will probably stay how it is now. Hope you like it. I think it shows what the blog is about in a sense. Just by pictures.

Background

 Okay, still experimenting with backgrounds. I figured I'd pick pictures from my computer. The ones that are available to choose from are good, but I guess I want something else. I went with the light art.

Okay, does anyone think I should try those out or do you like what I have now?

Dreaming of the Future

I'm at least writing on my stories again. I hope one day I can become an author. My want is to make someone's pain go away, at least for a little while. Books make me focus on their reality, not my own. They help me through things, give me things to think about, and inspire me. I want to do that for someone else. I don't care about the fame. I know authors aren't very famous anyway, but you get what I mean. Books can make people laugh and cry and relate and bond. I think it's amazing that all of that can happen because of a book. Books can cheer people up or calm them down. I may not make much of a difference in the world, but if I make someone's life better, then I'll have accomplished one of the things I want to achieve. I want to mainly by a book though. It seems I've already made some people's lives better.
When I was born, my grandpa stopped drinking. He did it because of me.
My love tells me that I've changed his life and I believe him because he's changed mine.
I still want to change someone's life with a book.
I also want to have a family one day...That actually communicates...
I guess that's it.
I'm not sure if I've used this quote before, but some of what's in the quote is what I want.
"To laugh often and much;to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children...to leave the world a better place..to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived.This is to have succeeded." - Ralph Waldo Emerson
I want to make another life breathe easier...
I love that quote and I agree with it. In the end, is how much money you have/had going to matter?
I might continue this later. That's enough for now.

Changes to the Blog

Alright. I'm not sure if the blog looks okay. But, I'm trying new things. I'm gonna try to edit it more, but it wouldn't let me. Errors and what not. Hopefully, the blog isn't repulsive. Anyways, I'm going to try and post more. I guess that's it.

Truth is...

Truth is:
People change, not just others, but you can too. I have some friends that have changed and it turns out I've changed a good bit myself. It seems I don't care that much anymore. I'm more anti-social. I guess I just don't want to deal with other people changing and with the same drama over and over and over again. I'm sick of a lot of things...

...Look At Me Now...

Okay. A lot of things have happened since-well, Easter. I passed the 9th grade! Woo! Haha. It's a miracle I got a B in biology. (That was a major score.) I'm not a freshman anymore which is just shocking to me. I'll be 15 soon and I can't believe life is going by like this. My first anniversary is in 4 days <3 I haven't got a new camera yet. It's still on my mind, but I'm not really devastated anymore. Life is coming at me, well everyone, fast.
I still get lost occasionally. I think everything will be fine. I still get upset, but I get comforted. I've come pretty far and I'm not going back now.

Bad Day

Well, for me it wasn't a 'Happy Easter'... 

Learned that people really do change.. Got my feelings hurt... Missed my love. My camera broke.. Gotta get more money and buy another one. At least it gives me a good excuse to get a better one and a purple one. (I love purple) ...

I got some good songs at least.. 

I got to swing at least.. That's good,right? (I like swingin')

I'm upset, but I was on top of a roof earlier and I was just blowing bubbles like it was nobody's business and listenin' to "Hold My Hand" by: Hootie and the Blowfish and "It Ain't Over 'Til It's Over" by: Lenny Kravitz. 

Don't know how tomorrow will be...

I'm really not looking forward to dissecting a worm tomorrow... Ugh.. I'll study a little in a bit, I guess. I'm not in the mood...

Please?

I need reassurance.
I need to be left alone by a lot of people.
I need hope..

Lost

If any of you (when I say you,I mean those out there that are living and actually care about the blog) are wondering what happened to me:I'm alive of course. I've just been busy with life I guess. I've been thinking a lot though. As usual, but I sometimes wonder if I am a little too high up. My mindset anyways. Some things don't seem too realistic. I don't know. I guess it's just because I'm a teenager.
What's gonna suck though is:If nothing goes how I wish for it too in the future. I mean-I don't know. I'm just confused, but I barely know what I'm confused about. I barely know if I'm confused. It's like it's all right there, but blurry in a sense. Like I reach to grab it or lean in to look and it gets more blurry or just vanishes.

I'm Not Elaborating,But Dictionaries Are Fun

Had a happy day today..
To:The Most Amazing Person In The World
I love you<3 <3 (: 
Just thought I'd say.
Love:Hailey<3

?

Life is such a big question mark..
That is all.

Black Dress

Okay, well yesterday I wore a dress. Which is new for me, because before last Saturday I was against dresses. But this one was so cute. It's black and the brand is So which is one of my favorite brands. It's a sweetheart dress according to the tag. I wore a black shirt under though for dress code policy and what not. I got a lot of compliments, which you know would make anyone happy. His compliment was the best though<3 
I hope today is as good as yesterday.
Have a good day/night depending on where you are (:

My Magnificent Cherry Blossom Tree I Drew

 (:

Frazzled

Ever feel like things just won't happen well for once?
I do..
I was trying to research for this English report I have to do.. I need more information from the teacher, but we went to the library in class doing basically pointless things..
Then, I come home and I was looking at different classes I can take next year and years after that. I wanna do a lot next year but I only have 3 periods that I can choose my classes. I want to do creative writing and journalism and that class where you learn about children and babies and child development. But I should probably do a foreign language and driver's ed would be smart too. Graphic arts would help as well. Art would be pretty good too..
I feel really frazzled.
Then, today at school I got mad.. It's the people thing again. It's not my fault. I just want to know why people act certain ways...
Today wasn't too fantastic.
I think I might just read or watch TV or a movie... I might go to bed super early too. Just so I can try to have some rest and peace.
...

Can't Believe It

Okay. So Beastly was amazing. It was funny and romantic and it makes you think. I loved it. Yesterday was my 9th montheversary which I think I mentioned. It was amazing. I think things might get better from the downhill thing. I hope everything is going well with everyone. I'm doing better. It might go wrong tomorrow. I'm hoping for the best though. I can't believe I've got 4 more years until I'm an adult. I have 3 more years of high school left after this one. It's coming fast.

Weekend

If you want to know how my life's going, well it's better than yesterday.
3/09/11-Good day.
3/10/11-Bad day.
3/11/11-Decent day.
Yeah.
I got an idea for a story, so I'm gonna hurry and tell you what I have to say.
Tomorrow is my 9 montheversary. So I'm happy about that. Sunday me and a friend are going to see Beastly and then finish up our biology project. So my weekend is planned.
That's it I guess.
I hope everyone is doing alright.
To:My Mister With Gorgeous Eyes
I love you<3

Change

I found out that if you want things to be different and change you have to make it happen. I'm happier now. People are still bothersome and some opinions get to me more than they would another person. But I'm better. I hope everything is well with everyone else out there.

Attracting Leprechauns

Okay. I'm a liar. I don't feel like elaborating today (about the English thing). I'm kinda tired. But I'm reading Rules of Attraction by:Simone Elkeles. I read Perfect Chemistry a few months ago and they are both amazing! I'm happy now though. I'm just gonna say some things got resolved. I'm so happy now. <3

To:A Certain Mister Sir I'm Staying With Forever
I love you<3 I'm so happy<3 I'll never leave your side.
Love:That Little Leprechaun You Skip Around With


"Eres hermosa."-Carlos (From Rules of Attraction) It means You're beautiful. 

Opinions Part I

In English today we had to read an article (that we chose) in our local college's paper. And most of us got really opinionated  and upset ... including me. I mean nobody cares about what they think. (It was the opinion side) Like 4 or 5 people counting myself started disagreeing with the paper and everything. It was kinda cool actually. I get opinions and I have to tell somebody.
I'll elaborate later.

No Green Thumb

Wish I could change... Life is like a roller-coaster...Scratch that..Emotions are like roller-coasters.
I'm so moody...Maybe I should stop saying that though...Ya'll probably get tired of seeing it..
I finished The Killing Sea today and it was so good! I had to read it for school. It was gruesome, but really good.
I'm sad about biology though. My seed didn't even get any roots. I don't think I have a green thumb.. But I did make an 81 on the test we had on Friday. So, I'm doing a little bit better in biology. (It's not my best subject)
And tomorrow I finally get to go to art. I had to miss yesterday and today because of the mock grad exam. I hope we get to work on our mugs and I hope mine is still wet enough to work with. Art is calming. That's one reason I need a new hobby. Something that calms me. Maybe tomorrow I can go to Hobby Lobby.
I've got the biology part of the mock grad exam tomorrow.. Hopefully I'll do okay.
The English part was today and I thought it was really easy, I think I missed at the max..5.The reading one yesterday was kinda easy. I got a little confused on some of the questions though.
I'll be okay.Hopefully. Once I can get a new calming hobby maybe I'll be under control.

Have A Good Day

Is goin' to school in a little while. I'm gonna go eat somethin' I guess. I hope today goes well. I've got the mock grad exam language part today. Yesterday was reading and tomorrow is biology. ...I hope I do well. It gauges our classes for next year.
Everyone have a good day.

Dancing Burden

Music calms the soul. It may not yours,but it does mine. Cage the Elephant has become my best-friend(s). Maybe it put the angel and demon to sleep or they can just dance around together.
I don't want to call up people. I can't stand feeling like a burden. ..I feel like a burden to myself in a way..
I especially hate making people feel bad..just 'cause I do. Let me just try to tough it out so I won't bring you down. I know I need some of the people in my life, but I can't stand making them worry about me. I don't care if I'm exposed, that's fine, but I don't want to put another worry on someone else. I worry about others. I don't want people worrying about me. ..Even though people should worry about me sometimes.. It makes me happy people care about me. But, it makes me feel kinda bad 'cause they shouldn't have to focus on me like that.
So..that was some of my rawest emotions. I tried untangling some of them for you.

Cage the Elephant. I figured they deserve some credit.Wish I found them a while ago.
No quote.

To:Well You Should Know.If It's In Pink It's For You
I love you. I'm sorry. Thank you so much for everything you do for me. I'm really glad I have you. I just don't want to trouble you.
Love:Me

My Demon Shot My Angel/My Angel Shot My Demon

Is there something wrong with me?..
People won't even be talking to me and I just..I get annoyed. It's other people's personalities not meshing well with mine... I guess..
I don't know.
I conflict with myself. Half of me feels like it's okay to feel like that. But half of me feels that something's wrong and I shouldn't feel like that.
I know some people may say "What happened?" (I love you.It's just nothing really happens..) ,but nothing really happens to me. Unless you count my demon and my angel shooting each other. I shouldn't say demon and angel being that neither one is mean or anything. Just one is more dark and pessimistic than the other I guess. Although one says It's their problem, not yours.Don't worry about it. and the other replies with It is your problem.What are you gonna do?

Till' Death Do Us Part?

I don't get some things in life.
I like to believe each person in the world has someone they're meant to be with.However, I can only believe that up to a point.Then it becomes chaos.
People die at a young age when they're just married or dating.And then people die when they're old, but they don't usually die together.
People remarry.People divorce. I mean I can understand that it may not work out the first couple of times. But the divorce thing doesn't really match with what I'm talking about now.
What happens when you die? If you end up in Heaven..and the one you were with in the beginning and they're in Heaven too what happens? You remarried..are you still with the first person? Do you still love them?
It confuses me.
I hope I don't have to find out what it's like to die alone.. If my love leaves me alone when he dies then I won't remarry, but I really hope I don't have to find out. I don't want to know what it's like to go through life without that person I depend on.It'd be hard after depending on them for so long.
Oh, when you say Till' death do us part.. Why? You should still love them afterwards..Right? I mean I think so.I guess.
[I believe in God.So I hope you won't stop reading my blog if you don't.]

Vampire Mug

Oh! Update Time:
My mug in art:I made it a vampire. I don't know if I'm putting a nose on it. I don't see the need. It's got a mouth and vampire teeth and all that. I think it looks cool yet a little creepy. The eyes are just circles. When I get to take it home and everything and it turns out looking pretty good I'll put a post a picture of it's vampire glory.

My Life,Not Yours

1.Realized some people that you barely know offer comfort,support,and sympathy and some that you've known for a while don't offer much at all.
2.Some people should just mind their own business.
3.I still don't like a lot of people.
4.Some people..It's not my problem, but they just seem to stir up drama out of nowhere.
5.I need a new hobby.
6.Some people like to think they know exactly how everyone else feels and exactly what everyone else thinks.Sorry, but no. Just leave your nose out of my problems and business unless I have confided in you about everything.Laid out all of my emotions and feelings there for you.If I haven't really done that or even begun too don't even try.You don't know.
7.Scream.It's okay.
8.Cry.It will be fine.
9.It will be okay.Maybe not today.Maybe not tomorrow.But eventually it will be.
10.If you don't like this blog..You're problem.Not mine.
11.Find out life for yourself.

"In my life, I have seen,People walking to the sea,Just to find memories,Plagued by constant misery,Their eyes cast down,Fixed upon the ground,Their eyes cast down;I'll keep my eyes fixed on the sun"-Cage the Elephant [Shake Me Down]

Art

I'm probably gonna make my clay mug in art a vampire. 'Cause I might as well be one and they're cool.[Not the sparkling weird ones.] I'm really pale,my canine teeth(is that what they're called?) are kinda pointy,and I threaten to bite people. One of my nicknames is vampire... yup. 

For Exploration In Theater I have to do a project which is a mask of a stock character and I'm probably going to do Pedrolino. It'll be fun, at least I hope so. 

Tomorrow will be a better day hopefully.

No quote or picture. 

Masked Confusion

Same old, same old. Only I'm more confused..
But I guess I want to find it out for myself. That's life isn't it? I think so. Still figuring myself out and sorting things out.
But now! I have a project for my Exploration in Theater class and I'm gonna get to decorate a mask. So, that sounds fun. I just have to get the stuff to do it. And if I can't I'm falling back and writing a two page scenario using stock characters. So it's something to look forward too.
No picture.No quote. I'm not feeling it today I guess.
To:My One And Only Love
I love you<3
and 
Thank you for everything you do for me.
Love:Hailey

Yay

Hmm.Nothing bad has happened.Yesterday my love came over and it was nice/fun.I guess that's all I need to say.Later, I'm sure, I'll see some kind of article or video to spark my opinions.Now,I'm fine though.

"Averageness"

I love going on this site MyLifeIsAverage.com to be cheered up and I just thought I'd share one of my favorites with you:
The wall between my geometry class and the algebra class next to us is very thin, and they are always complaining that they hear us having fun while they do boring work. So one day when the algebra kids are taking a test, we all stood next to the wall between us and my teacher started yelling at one of the best students in our class. After a while, he shouted, "Why are you crying? You think this is bad?" Then one of the other students in our class threw himself against the wall between the classes. My teacher yelled "That didn't hurt! Get up!", and all raced over into the algebra class. The expressions on their faces= priceless. MLIA
It kinda reminds me of my math class. One day my teacher was teaching us about something new and he said, "You have to get really far away to look at this." and then he walked to the back of the room and stood on a chair and began teaching again. I really enjoy that class.
I also love when teachers actually care about their students. I have been cheered up by that same teacher,my history teacher also cares,as well as my English teacher,and my art teacher. Some of my past teachers do as well. 
No picture or quote.
Found another:
Today my mom started crying because her brand new ipod nano wasn't working. My dad took it and tried pressing all the buttons but it still stayed blank. My 20 year old brother took it and tried to fix it too and it stil didn't work. I took it, pressed the middle button and still nothing happened. Then my little brother gives a huge long exasperated sigh; gets up, grabs the ipod from me and flicks the hold button. "my GOD people," he said and then sat back down on the sofa to play with his batman toy. My little brother is 5. MLIA

Are You "Handling It"?

I always say that you're only given what you can handle and everything happens for a reason.
But how do you know you're "handling it"? What if you break down every few days? Would that be "handling it"?
And I'm one of those people that would prefer to know reasons of things..usually..,but not science reasons. Sometimes we don't know reasons and we may never know them about some things.. At least while we're alive..
What if you conflict with yourself?
What if you feel like a few different people?
What if it's like you think someone else changes personalities when..it's really you that's changes?
             ...Um, no quote I guess...
Sorry...                                

Sneezing Comedy/Donuts and Dinosaurs

Okay, so it seems like everyone is getting sick or sicker..

My brother is sick,my mom is sick,I was sick,my gorgeous boyfriend was sick, but now he's lost his beautiful voice..which makes me pretty sad..
Apparently according to some people this blog is boring.Okay, well it's not my fault seriousness isn't your thing.I have issues and I'm sure anyone that reads this is aware of that. I like being serious, but I can joke too. So now I suppose I'll include more fun things every now and then. It's still my blog and I'll say what I want.I have this mainly because I can be me and it's one of the only ways I can completely express myself.
Today was a pretty good day. One of my friends had a fail today though..haha. Even though in some ways this day was sad..in others it was really good.. Neutral I guess... Maybe?
However now I want to write a comedy movie or something all because my mom said she had to sneeze and she was driving and then my weird mind came up with something funny..
Well, I guess I'm done with this post..
Oh, the title(first part) I just thought of reminds me of a friend (: when she sneezes it scares everyone then we start laughing.. (Same friend as the one that was the fail and the donuts and dinosaurs...the fail is the quote)
As for a picture and a quote? I'm thinking on a picture and a quote is gonna be a quote from one of my friends.. There'll be two quotes this time.

"Dinosaurs are just lies fed to us to cover up the existence of donuts..?-Katrina Harrison


"DONUTS!!!!"-Randall Bevis        

Confusion

According to someone now my friends and I are devil worshipers.. Just because we have writing on our arms and the writing consists of:'I luhh you' (I love you only awesome),'I like Taco Bell','Black and Yellow','Tinker Bell','Yo Mama','Do you like waffles?','*I love Frank',and various other innocent things.
What has the world come too?

"Creativity is a drug I cannot live without." -  Cecil B. DeMille

Happy

Well, today was actually nice. I didn't really have a problem with people well actually someone had a problem with me and one of my *companions.. It can be overlooked, feeble-minded can't help it..Now can they?
Anyways, I walked into biology a class that I hardly like and it was actually nice. The blinds were open which made me happy. I like light. I'm understanding what we're doing now which is really good.
Although, now thanks to history class I now want to read The Interpretation of Dreams by:Sigmund Freud.

(This picture symbolizes happiness in my opinion and it's just so pretty)
"I am a kind of paranoiac in reverse. I suspect people of plotting to make me happy." - J.D. Salinger


This quote is pretty much true for me. A lot of people try to make me happy. And some made me very happy today.


To:An Amazing Gorgeous Boyfriend
I love you 
Love:A Girl You Made Very Happy

Reasons

Okay, yesterday I was having difficulties around people. As you all know I seem to have issues.. I just feel that people-not all people-just some, are typical,annoying,mindless,snobby,whatever else. Again I say I think I have an older mind..Might be because of some of the things I've went through. I don't know. But I think I turned out alright. I've still got time to grow, but I'm just like everybody else-trying to find my place in the world[I italicize 'my' because I'm not here to guide everybody else to do whatever. I mean yeah I'll help, but - not the point.] I mean if my place is making someone else happy, by someone else I mean my love, and theirs is to make me happy. I mean that could be one reason I'm here, but one of the reason's I'm here that I want to come true is to write books to let someone else escape reality and half a laugh or for them to want to become a writer too.
I'm sure you can all tell that I'm on of those people that want reasons, and I am, usually. I want reasons and not science ones. I believe in that saying 'Everything happens for a reason',but sometimes that's not enough for me. I want to know why, but for spiritual/emotional things and all that. I want to know why someone feels a certain way or does a certain thing..And sometimes it goes with their past.Future habits relate to past experiences.
I also believe in 'It it's meant to happen it will happen'.

"Be not the slave of your own past. Plunge into the sublime seas, dive deep and swim far, so you shall come back with self-respect, with new power, with an advanced experience that shall explain and overlook the old." - Ralph Waldo Emerson

Sickening Weather

Snow day.Again. I'm glad for it this time 'cause I'm sick today.
Not much else has happened since my last post. I guess I'll be blogging more today if I think of good topics.
For now I'm discussing the weather:Lately it's been snow all the time.We've never had this much snow.A few weeks ago we were out for maybe 3 or 4 days for snow. It doesn't make sense though because the other day it was warm enough to not wear a jacket at all and now it's below freezing. Alabama is weird.
I might have movie time later..Haha.I need to occupy myself with something. I might visit my grandparents too. Since they live very close to me.
I hate being sick..Gah. Well, I guess that's it for this.

"Health is not valued till sickness comes." - Dr. Thomas Fuller

Genuine

I may say this often.On my blog and off, but people, their ways rather, bother me greatly. I can understand some things, but I can't grasp other things. And I can usually understand some confusing things. But how can I understand things that are nonsense? It's hardly my business, that is until people pull me into it. I may be an advice guru, but currently I've been sick of some people. I was discussing my views with someone the other day and here's what I [well not necessarily think because this is just a bunch of jumbled thoughts] feel:
Some people are typical. Some are genuine. Some are fake being typical and are actually genuine underneath the facade. I suppose some people are just fake too..
But shouldn't you care about a person? Not just what they look like? Why would you use someone? Why would you cheat on someone?
I know. Here I am again with Why?
But lately I've been noticing people's ways and they're starting to disturb me.
Well there are plenty of quotes to end this. So I'll just go with this one:

  "The test of courage comes when we are in the minority. The test of tolerance comes when we are in the majority." - Ralph W. Sockman

Hope

You're going to feel lost in this world we call home sometimes. I'm learning that. I suppose this blog is me telling you what I think,feel,hope,dream,wish,believe,what I'm learning,and what I'm scared of. I really hope that if someone is reading this other than the people I'm close with and that already know my views can understand where I'm coming from. So you there reading this I hope we have something in common.
I've also learnt that you can't make everyone happy. And you can't have good relationships with everyone. And
I'm still wondering and questioning a lot of things, but I still haven't found the answers. Maybe one day when I'm older and I have a few novels out then I'll know at least one of the reason's I'm here. I say this because the books I read help me. They let me escape reality,have laughs,help me relate,and they give me hope because if they can do it maybe I can too. I know that that is a cliche',but it's the truth at least the way I'm looking at things.
I don't necessarily have a quote to go with this, however I do have I quote I'd like to put with this. This picture symbolizes hope [in my opinion].                       
  "I hate quotations. Tell me what you know."-Ralph Waldo Emerson

Why

Why everything?
Why do I think the thoughts I think?
Why do I know the people I know?
Why do I act the way I act?
Why do I believe what I believe?
Why do I have the opinions I have?
Why!!!!!!!??????
If I could scream to the sky and receive answers I would be out there in the rain right now screaming until I couldn't breathe.
I have so much more questions that will probably never be answered..

"All life is an experiment. The more experiments you make the better." - Ralph Waldo Emerson

Thinking

I have come to realize that there will be things that go wrong. Things won't always be how you want. You will get sad. You will fix things that you messed up. You'll wish for things that may or may not ever happen. Yet, things will get better.
Everything happens for a reason.
You're feelings will get hurt. You'll hurt someone else's feelings. A thousand thoughts will race through your mind wondering what they're thinking and if you actually upset someone else.
Limits will be tested and boundaries will be broken.
You'll get mad. You'll anger someone else. You'll cry and you'll scream.
So should we just give up on our visions on a perfect world?

"Our greatest glory is not in never failing, but in rising up every time we fail."

-Ralph Waldo Emerson

Anger,Loss,and Questions

Respect people's boundaries.
People are different. So just stop if you can tell that they are getting irritated.
___________________
Think about consequences.
Think about feelings. Other people's and your own.
________________________
I snapped at some people. I don't really feel all that bad. I do feel a little bad, possibly because I'm a little hurt because people can't seem to understand. I'm upset that I can't get a point across. I have issues. I just don't know what to say..
____________________
I'm confused about life... Just why?

"Sometimes, just try and think." - Hailey G. (Me)

Flaws

Why do some people point out flaws?
I mean the person you're talking about doesn't really appreciate it and they probably already know.
Why can't we just accept each other as we are?
I mean I can understand if it's a drug,drinking,intervention type thing,etc. problem, but otherwise I don't get it.
Different situations I suppose..
However, I can understand just talking relationship things out and working on becoming a better person. But things you can't help, that can be left alone. It kinda makes people feel bad.

“Better a diamond with a flaw than a pebble without.”

- Confucius

Pictures of Sadness

Me and my family were looking at pictures yesterday and family members that actually knew some of the people in the pictures had basically forgot about them.
Pictures can be taken and saved, but it doesn't mean you'll remember the people in them or still have anything to do with them. Does it?
I'm not really sure with what I'm trying to say, but it just strikes me as odd I guess that all that is possible no matter how much we may try to forget.
Which brings me to this:
I've come across pictures that have had pieces cut out and torn to remove someone else. As much as we want to forget the things that have tainted our good memories with sadness it still saddens us. I think it's because we know who or what it was in the picture.
I can't exactly put my finger on all the reasons it makes us sad, but I can tell you that it did make me sad. (Sorry, but this is the closest quote I could find to match what I was talking about)

“We never taste happiness in perfection, our most fortunate successes are mixed with sadness.” - Pierre Corneille 

Love

I take love very seriously. I believe that you can fall in love at a younger age and actually love them. Some adults don't even know what love is [if you ask me]. Different people,different personalities,different emotions,different feelings,different views. You have to take all that into consideration.
Some people are users. Some people are looking to just date. Some are just trying to find the one they want to be with forever. I'm not trying to judge anyone. I sometimes do. I don't mean it. But my beliefs and opinions get the best of me sometimes.
But we shouldn't insult anyone else's lifestyle really. We shouldn't analyze their relationships. [*Side note:When I say "we" I mean as people]
Back to what I was saying: A grown person may not even know where they stand in life,where they want to be standing or anything like that. A teenager may know exactly where they stand,what they have to do to get ahead,what they want out of life,etc.
So why do people have to be negative? Why do people have to try to rain on people's parades? It's that person's life. Let them make it,mess it up,or tape it back together again.
Love is also such a broad term. However, if you're saying it to that person that makes your world then mean it. Make sure you actually love them before you mess up and just say it out of reaction. Make sure you're in love with them.

             “To the world you may be just one person, but to one person you may be the world.”  - Brandi Snyder     

                                 

Anyone Out There?

Sometimes I wonder if there are more people out there that feel the same way I do about some things. I know of a few. However, you can't help just wondering if there's a person who feels exactly how you do.

What are we supposed to do with all of our opinions and beliefs is what I'd like to know. When some of us have opinions that could get us shot (us in general) especially. 

Are we supposed to make some kind of organization? Write a book? [*Side thing: I'm writing stories, but not revolving around my beliefs and opinions]

Are we supposed to just sit and do nothing? There's not a lot you can do if the majority of the world disagrees with you.

“Don’t ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive." - Howard Thurman

I Sometimes Feel Like I Have The Mind Of An Older Being

You ever feel like that?
When it seems like your opinions and beliefs are on a higher level than some other people that are your age?
I mean I don't judge.I don't try to put anyone down. I just think that some people don't take some things as seriously as I do.
Some people that are older than me probably don't take some things as seriously as I do.
Here lately, I've been thinking and some opinions have started to shift. So now I'm starting to understand and find out what my priorities are, instead of what other people say they should be.



"To laugh often and much;to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children...to leave the world a better place...to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded."

-Ralph Waldo Emerson

Life

Why do we (as people) concern ourselves with nonsense?
When we can focus on better things..
I'd rather spend my time focusing on stories I'm writing,spending time with the people I love,thinking about how I can make a difference,etc.
I guess I'm just an outsider or something.
Here's to hoping,dreaming,and wishing.

"The world is a stage, but the play is badly cast." - Oscar Wilde