Dancing Burden

Music calms the soul. It may not yours,but it does mine. Cage the Elephant has become my best-friend(s). Maybe it put the angel and demon to sleep or they can just dance around together.
I don't want to call up people. I can't stand feeling like a burden. ..I feel like a burden to myself in a way..
I especially hate making people feel bad..just 'cause I do. Let me just try to tough it out so I won't bring you down. I know I need some of the people in my life, but I can't stand making them worry about me. I don't care if I'm exposed, that's fine, but I don't want to put another worry on someone else. I worry about others. I don't want people worrying about me. ..Even though people should worry about me sometimes.. It makes me happy people care about me. But, it makes me feel kinda bad 'cause they shouldn't have to focus on me like that.
So..that was some of my rawest emotions. I tried untangling some of them for you.

Cage the Elephant. I figured they deserve some credit.Wish I found them a while ago.
No quote.

To:Well You Should Know.If It's In Pink It's For You
I love you. I'm sorry. Thank you so much for everything you do for me. I'm really glad I have you. I just don't want to trouble you.
Love:Me

My Demon Shot My Angel/My Angel Shot My Demon

Is there something wrong with me?..
People won't even be talking to me and I just..I get annoyed. It's other people's personalities not meshing well with mine... I guess..
I don't know.
I conflict with myself. Half of me feels like it's okay to feel like that. But half of me feels that something's wrong and I shouldn't feel like that.
I know some people may say "What happened?" (I love you.It's just nothing really happens..) ,but nothing really happens to me. Unless you count my demon and my angel shooting each other. I shouldn't say demon and angel being that neither one is mean or anything. Just one is more dark and pessimistic than the other I guess. Although one says It's their problem, not yours.Don't worry about it. and the other replies with It is your problem.What are you gonna do?

Till' Death Do Us Part?

I don't get some things in life.
I like to believe each person in the world has someone they're meant to be with.However, I can only believe that up to a point.Then it becomes chaos.
People die at a young age when they're just married or dating.And then people die when they're old, but they don't usually die together.
People remarry.People divorce. I mean I can understand that it may not work out the first couple of times. But the divorce thing doesn't really match with what I'm talking about now.
What happens when you die? If you end up in Heaven..and the one you were with in the beginning and they're in Heaven too what happens? You remarried..are you still with the first person? Do you still love them?
It confuses me.
I hope I don't have to find out what it's like to die alone.. If my love leaves me alone when he dies then I won't remarry, but I really hope I don't have to find out. I don't want to know what it's like to go through life without that person I depend on.It'd be hard after depending on them for so long.
Oh, when you say Till' death do us part.. Why? You should still love them afterwards..Right? I mean I think so.I guess.
[I believe in God.So I hope you won't stop reading my blog if you don't.]

Vampire Mug

Oh! Update Time:
My mug in art:I made it a vampire. I don't know if I'm putting a nose on it. I don't see the need. It's got a mouth and vampire teeth and all that. I think it looks cool yet a little creepy. The eyes are just circles. When I get to take it home and everything and it turns out looking pretty good I'll put a post a picture of it's vampire glory.

My Life,Not Yours

1.Realized some people that you barely know offer comfort,support,and sympathy and some that you've known for a while don't offer much at all.
2.Some people should just mind their own business.
3.I still don't like a lot of people.
4.Some people..It's not my problem, but they just seem to stir up drama out of nowhere.
5.I need a new hobby.
6.Some people like to think they know exactly how everyone else feels and exactly what everyone else thinks.Sorry, but no. Just leave your nose out of my problems and business unless I have confided in you about everything.Laid out all of my emotions and feelings there for you.If I haven't really done that or even begun too don't even try.You don't know.
7.Scream.It's okay.
8.Cry.It will be fine.
9.It will be okay.Maybe not today.Maybe not tomorrow.But eventually it will be.
10.If you don't like this blog..You're problem.Not mine.
11.Find out life for yourself.

"In my life, I have seen,People walking to the sea,Just to find memories,Plagued by constant misery,Their eyes cast down,Fixed upon the ground,Their eyes cast down;I'll keep my eyes fixed on the sun"-Cage the Elephant [Shake Me Down]

Art

I'm probably gonna make my clay mug in art a vampire. 'Cause I might as well be one and they're cool.[Not the sparkling weird ones.] I'm really pale,my canine teeth(is that what they're called?) are kinda pointy,and I threaten to bite people. One of my nicknames is vampire... yup. 

For Exploration In Theater I have to do a project which is a mask of a stock character and I'm probably going to do Pedrolino. It'll be fun, at least I hope so. 

Tomorrow will be a better day hopefully.

No quote or picture. 

Masked Confusion

Same old, same old. Only I'm more confused..
But I guess I want to find it out for myself. That's life isn't it? I think so. Still figuring myself out and sorting things out.
But now! I have a project for my Exploration in Theater class and I'm gonna get to decorate a mask. So, that sounds fun. I just have to get the stuff to do it. And if I can't I'm falling back and writing a two page scenario using stock characters. So it's something to look forward too.
No picture.No quote. I'm not feeling it today I guess.
To:My One And Only Love
I love you<3
and 
Thank you for everything you do for me.
Love:Hailey

Yay

Hmm.Nothing bad has happened.Yesterday my love came over and it was nice/fun.I guess that's all I need to say.Later, I'm sure, I'll see some kind of article or video to spark my opinions.Now,I'm fine though.

"Averageness"

I love going on this site MyLifeIsAverage.com to be cheered up and I just thought I'd share one of my favorites with you:
The wall between my geometry class and the algebra class next to us is very thin, and they are always complaining that they hear us having fun while they do boring work. So one day when the algebra kids are taking a test, we all stood next to the wall between us and my teacher started yelling at one of the best students in our class. After a while, he shouted, "Why are you crying? You think this is bad?" Then one of the other students in our class threw himself against the wall between the classes. My teacher yelled "That didn't hurt! Get up!", and all raced over into the algebra class. The expressions on their faces= priceless. MLIA
It kinda reminds me of my math class. One day my teacher was teaching us about something new and he said, "You have to get really far away to look at this." and then he walked to the back of the room and stood on a chair and began teaching again. I really enjoy that class.
I also love when teachers actually care about their students. I have been cheered up by that same teacher,my history teacher also cares,as well as my English teacher,and my art teacher. Some of my past teachers do as well. 
No picture or quote.
Found another:
Today my mom started crying because her brand new ipod nano wasn't working. My dad took it and tried pressing all the buttons but it still stayed blank. My 20 year old brother took it and tried to fix it too and it stil didn't work. I took it, pressed the middle button and still nothing happened. Then my little brother gives a huge long exasperated sigh; gets up, grabs the ipod from me and flicks the hold button. "my GOD people," he said and then sat back down on the sofa to play with his batman toy. My little brother is 5. MLIA

Are You "Handling It"?

I always say that you're only given what you can handle and everything happens for a reason.
But how do you know you're "handling it"? What if you break down every few days? Would that be "handling it"?
And I'm one of those people that would prefer to know reasons of things..usually..,but not science reasons. Sometimes we don't know reasons and we may never know them about some things.. At least while we're alive..
What if you conflict with yourself?
What if you feel like a few different people?
What if it's like you think someone else changes personalities when..it's really you that's changes?
             ...Um, no quote I guess...
Sorry...                                

Sneezing Comedy/Donuts and Dinosaurs

Okay, so it seems like everyone is getting sick or sicker..

My brother is sick,my mom is sick,I was sick,my gorgeous boyfriend was sick, but now he's lost his beautiful voice..which makes me pretty sad..
Apparently according to some people this blog is boring.Okay, well it's not my fault seriousness isn't your thing.I have issues and I'm sure anyone that reads this is aware of that. I like being serious, but I can joke too. So now I suppose I'll include more fun things every now and then. It's still my blog and I'll say what I want.I have this mainly because I can be me and it's one of the only ways I can completely express myself.
Today was a pretty good day. One of my friends had a fail today though..haha. Even though in some ways this day was sad..in others it was really good.. Neutral I guess... Maybe?
However now I want to write a comedy movie or something all because my mom said she had to sneeze and she was driving and then my weird mind came up with something funny..
Well, I guess I'm done with this post..
Oh, the title(first part) I just thought of reminds me of a friend (: when she sneezes it scares everyone then we start laughing.. (Same friend as the one that was the fail and the donuts and dinosaurs...the fail is the quote)
As for a picture and a quote? I'm thinking on a picture and a quote is gonna be a quote from one of my friends.. There'll be two quotes this time.

"Dinosaurs are just lies fed to us to cover up the existence of donuts..?-Katrina Harrison


"DONUTS!!!!"-Randall Bevis        

Confusion

According to someone now my friends and I are devil worshipers.. Just because we have writing on our arms and the writing consists of:'I luhh you' (I love you only awesome),'I like Taco Bell','Black and Yellow','Tinker Bell','Yo Mama','Do you like waffles?','*I love Frank',and various other innocent things.
What has the world come too?

"Creativity is a drug I cannot live without." -  Cecil B. DeMille

Happy

Well, today was actually nice. I didn't really have a problem with people well actually someone had a problem with me and one of my *companions.. It can be overlooked, feeble-minded can't help it..Now can they?
Anyways, I walked into biology a class that I hardly like and it was actually nice. The blinds were open which made me happy. I like light. I'm understanding what we're doing now which is really good.
Although, now thanks to history class I now want to read The Interpretation of Dreams by:Sigmund Freud.

(This picture symbolizes happiness in my opinion and it's just so pretty)
"I am a kind of paranoiac in reverse. I suspect people of plotting to make me happy." - J.D. Salinger


This quote is pretty much true for me. A lot of people try to make me happy. And some made me very happy today.


To:An Amazing Gorgeous Boyfriend
I love you 
Love:A Girl You Made Very Happy

Reasons

Okay, yesterday I was having difficulties around people. As you all know I seem to have issues.. I just feel that people-not all people-just some, are typical,annoying,mindless,snobby,whatever else. Again I say I think I have an older mind..Might be because of some of the things I've went through. I don't know. But I think I turned out alright. I've still got time to grow, but I'm just like everybody else-trying to find my place in the world[I italicize 'my' because I'm not here to guide everybody else to do whatever. I mean yeah I'll help, but - not the point.] I mean if my place is making someone else happy, by someone else I mean my love, and theirs is to make me happy. I mean that could be one reason I'm here, but one of the reason's I'm here that I want to come true is to write books to let someone else escape reality and half a laugh or for them to want to become a writer too.
I'm sure you can all tell that I'm on of those people that want reasons, and I am, usually. I want reasons and not science ones. I believe in that saying 'Everything happens for a reason',but sometimes that's not enough for me. I want to know why, but for spiritual/emotional things and all that. I want to know why someone feels a certain way or does a certain thing..And sometimes it goes with their past.Future habits relate to past experiences.
I also believe in 'It it's meant to happen it will happen'.

"Be not the slave of your own past. Plunge into the sublime seas, dive deep and swim far, so you shall come back with self-respect, with new power, with an advanced experience that shall explain and overlook the old." - Ralph Waldo Emerson

Sickening Weather

Snow day.Again. I'm glad for it this time 'cause I'm sick today.
Not much else has happened since my last post. I guess I'll be blogging more today if I think of good topics.
For now I'm discussing the weather:Lately it's been snow all the time.We've never had this much snow.A few weeks ago we were out for maybe 3 or 4 days for snow. It doesn't make sense though because the other day it was warm enough to not wear a jacket at all and now it's below freezing. Alabama is weird.
I might have movie time later..Haha.I need to occupy myself with something. I might visit my grandparents too. Since they live very close to me.
I hate being sick..Gah. Well, I guess that's it for this.

"Health is not valued till sickness comes." - Dr. Thomas Fuller

Genuine

I may say this often.On my blog and off, but people, their ways rather, bother me greatly. I can understand some things, but I can't grasp other things. And I can usually understand some confusing things. But how can I understand things that are nonsense? It's hardly my business, that is until people pull me into it. I may be an advice guru, but currently I've been sick of some people. I was discussing my views with someone the other day and here's what I [well not necessarily think because this is just a bunch of jumbled thoughts] feel:
Some people are typical. Some are genuine. Some are fake being typical and are actually genuine underneath the facade. I suppose some people are just fake too..
But shouldn't you care about a person? Not just what they look like? Why would you use someone? Why would you cheat on someone?
I know. Here I am again with Why?
But lately I've been noticing people's ways and they're starting to disturb me.
Well there are plenty of quotes to end this. So I'll just go with this one:

  "The test of courage comes when we are in the minority. The test of tolerance comes when we are in the majority." - Ralph W. Sockman

Hope

You're going to feel lost in this world we call home sometimes. I'm learning that. I suppose this blog is me telling you what I think,feel,hope,dream,wish,believe,what I'm learning,and what I'm scared of. I really hope that if someone is reading this other than the people I'm close with and that already know my views can understand where I'm coming from. So you there reading this I hope we have something in common.
I've also learnt that you can't make everyone happy. And you can't have good relationships with everyone. And
I'm still wondering and questioning a lot of things, but I still haven't found the answers. Maybe one day when I'm older and I have a few novels out then I'll know at least one of the reason's I'm here. I say this because the books I read help me. They let me escape reality,have laughs,help me relate,and they give me hope because if they can do it maybe I can too. I know that that is a cliche',but it's the truth at least the way I'm looking at things.
I don't necessarily have a quote to go with this, however I do have I quote I'd like to put with this. This picture symbolizes hope [in my opinion].                       
  "I hate quotations. Tell me what you know."-Ralph Waldo Emerson